Being Special

I just want to be special. I want to do something special. Be more than who I am now. Do more than what I'm doing now. All my life I've never been special. Everything I've done, someone else in my life has done and done better. I know I shouldn't compare myself to others because it will do nothing but destroy me slowly inside, but what does it matter when every little piece of pride and joy inside my heart has already been chipped away throughout my entire life? Nothing I've done has ever been acknowledged by those who matter in my life, my family and friends, because their attention has always been focused on someone better than me. So then, is it too much to want to do something special for once in my life? To do something that I know no one has done before. To be successful doing something that I love. I'm unhappy with how my life will turn out if I continue on this path that I'm taking and do nothing, take no action to do something more, but I don't know what I have to do. I just want to be special.